June 4, 2006
Greetings Sweet Anjlart Friends,
Happy Happy month of Graduation, Father’s Day and…Blessed Summer Vacation!!!
It’s been the longest school year I think I can remember in a very long time. This Teacher,
Singer/Songwriter/Artist is in a state of collapse since the reality of this closure has come
into focus. I’m not sure if it is the sore throat and fever I have been sporting this week or the
fact that that I don’t have to hold it all together each day at work anymore! Splat! That’s
what these past few days have felt like to me.
A quick recap…it’s was one of the most exhausting school years (with an increase of
about 80 more students per day than I am use to) with class size and an extended day
schedule (additional period). Then I was blessed with the experience of having two senior
World Lit classes (later changed to one at the semester only to be given another Freshman
Literacy course...Joy!) But I can’t tell you how much those sweet sweet seniors meant to me
this year. They helped me put-up and take down Christmas lights, we had incredible
moments of heart sharing honesty both in the classroom and in my home, and (don’t make
me cry) they even came to my gigs. I will miss their precious hugs and being able to tell
them that I love them daily. To my Sweet Seniors…I will never forget how much I needed
you this year…I love you guys so very much and I am so proud of you…go forth and be
present!
Then…there was the train wreck of “The Now” that catapulted a move into solo
performing that I never saw coming. The ultimate dichotomy of playing five out of town gigs
three of which were on the Central Coast…a dream…of sorts. Still my head spins thinking
of the month of April. How in the world did I do that? All I know is that it was a process of
“willingness” and “surrender” moment by moment, big time! All the while still showing up at
work and being “professional.” Urg!
Now that the past two months of soloing have passed I can honestly say, I feel
somewhat in my own skin again and am looking forward to this much needed and deserved
time off! As soon as this sore throat subsides, I will begin the fine tuning of my originals to
prepare for recording my first CD. But first….I am heading out to what I think of as …My
Heaven…Miraval Life in Balance Resort.
Am I a fool for going again, a third time in 18 months? (I’ll admit…It’s a heck of a lot of
cash!) No, I think out of all the times this is going to be the most needed. So much so that I
have even declined an offer to teach a workshop there. Just talking with the program
director about what I would teach (and appropriate compensation) started stressing me out
and although it would be such a great experience (not to mention what it would look like on
a resume) I realized that the “need” to strip away all this armor, far out weighs the “ego’s
desire to look good on paper.”
This cookie needs to find my right size again to see what the hell all of this has been
about while taking a good long inventory of all that has truly transpired. I’m not so sure the
promise to stand transparent has been all that I had hoped. What I do know is that…I know
myself so much more than I ever dreamed I would. And well…if I am going to live with this
woman for the rest of my life…then…I am feeling like she aint such a bad deal after all.
My body is healthier than ever after a year of commitment to better eating, daily exercise
and the gift of Reiki, Yoga and meditation practices. My art is soaring again…in fact a new
painting just finished today “Shards of Color,” a very sharp piece in color and design ( the
faded background for this newsletter). Seemingly symbolic of the shards of dangling glass
and levels of clarity that this Lioness has been seeing the world from these days.... and
some more new songs from a place in my soul that I never dreamed I’d meet…
“Exposed,” This is a great tune about the reassurance and support I got from a woman
whom I have always trusted since our first meeting over 20 years ago now. Diane, knows
me deeper than any other human being on this planet and I find it a great honor to call her
the best life coach I could ever have. She reminds me to “be myself, feel what I feel, and
most importantly has taught me how to be heard and be seen.” It has been with her sharp
wisdom and the kind of trust I have hungered for my whole life, that my path has been able
to take the kind of shape and form that it has. The unique way she mirrors “this woman” is
a gift that I know comes from a most Higher Source. Thank you Sweet Diane.
“Song of a Lioness” This amazingly fun song came from a place of being utterly torn in
two. A wonderful day of art and fun in the Malibu sun with friends, Darren and Mo…turned
sour by a discovery that some of my art/words had been plagiarized creating a feeling of
being raped. Then with the healing process of writing of these lyrics I found the answer…”
There are no mistakes.” And the life changing realization of what is really happening for
me… “A year of renewal, the butterfly soars on the song of a Lioness Beginning to Roar.”
The best part was the silly country ditty (music) that appeared out of no where and that
brought a most amazing humor to the “Hollow Hearted Harlots and the Scrounged Copy
Cats”
“Secret Selves.” The lyrics of this tune wrote themselves while I was working on a Julia
Cameron assignment in her book about renewing your creative self at work. Secret selves
are a committee of voices that we ought to behoove. Since they inform our very next move.
I love the selves that were revealed to me.
You can read the complete lyrics of almost all my songs now on the two lyric pages on
the Anjlart website by just clicking on the song title under the list of Originals. I hope you
enjoy and I love to hear your thoughts. Truly I do.
So it is in holding all this in the light that I again thank you all for walking with me, sweet
friends to this place in my heart. I wish you a month of relaxation, celebration, and
always…love.
Namaste,
Angeline/Anjlart
www.anjlart.com
"...retrieve your spirit from your past. Leave behind memories and places you should
have left behind long ago, even if the "long ago" occurred as recently as today." Caroline
Myss
Greetings Sweet Anjlart Friends,
Happy Happy month of Graduation, Father’s Day and…Blessed Summer Vacation!!!
It’s been the longest school year I think I can remember in a very long time. This Teacher,
Singer/Songwriter/Artist is in a state of collapse since the reality of this closure has come
into focus. I’m not sure if it is the sore throat and fever I have been sporting this week or the
fact that that I don’t have to hold it all together each day at work anymore! Splat! That’s
what these past few days have felt like to me.
A quick recap…it’s was one of the most exhausting school years (with an increase of
about 80 more students per day than I am use to) with class size and an extended day
schedule (additional period). Then I was blessed with the experience of having two senior
World Lit classes (later changed to one at the semester only to be given another Freshman
Literacy course...Joy!) But I can’t tell you how much those sweet sweet seniors meant to me
this year. They helped me put-up and take down Christmas lights, we had incredible
moments of heart sharing honesty both in the classroom and in my home, and (don’t make
me cry) they even came to my gigs. I will miss their precious hugs and being able to tell
them that I love them daily. To my Sweet Seniors…I will never forget how much I needed
you this year…I love you guys so very much and I am so proud of you…go forth and be
present!
Then…there was the train wreck of “The Now” that catapulted a move into solo
performing that I never saw coming. The ultimate dichotomy of playing five out of town gigs
three of which were on the Central Coast…a dream…of sorts. Still my head spins thinking
of the month of April. How in the world did I do that? All I know is that it was a process of
“willingness” and “surrender” moment by moment, big time! All the while still showing up at
work and being “professional.” Urg!
Now that the past two months of soloing have passed I can honestly say, I feel
somewhat in my own skin again and am looking forward to this much needed and deserved
time off! As soon as this sore throat subsides, I will begin the fine tuning of my originals to
prepare for recording my first CD. But first….I am heading out to what I think of as …My
Heaven…Miraval Life in Balance Resort.
Am I a fool for going again, a third time in 18 months? (I’ll admit…It’s a heck of a lot of
cash!) No, I think out of all the times this is going to be the most needed. So much so that I
have even declined an offer to teach a workshop there. Just talking with the program
director about what I would teach (and appropriate compensation) started stressing me out
and although it would be such a great experience (not to mention what it would look like on
a resume) I realized that the “need” to strip away all this armor, far out weighs the “ego’s
desire to look good on paper.”
This cookie needs to find my right size again to see what the hell all of this has been
about while taking a good long inventory of all that has truly transpired. I’m not so sure the
promise to stand transparent has been all that I had hoped. What I do know is that…I know
myself so much more than I ever dreamed I would. And well…if I am going to live with this
woman for the rest of my life…then…I am feeling like she aint such a bad deal after all.
My body is healthier than ever after a year of commitment to better eating, daily exercise
and the gift of Reiki, Yoga and meditation practices. My art is soaring again…in fact a new
painting just finished today “Shards of Color,” a very sharp piece in color and design ( the
faded background for this newsletter). Seemingly symbolic of the shards of dangling glass
and levels of clarity that this Lioness has been seeing the world from these days.... and
some more new songs from a place in my soul that I never dreamed I’d meet…
“Exposed,” This is a great tune about the reassurance and support I got from a woman
whom I have always trusted since our first meeting over 20 years ago now. Diane, knows
me deeper than any other human being on this planet and I find it a great honor to call her
the best life coach I could ever have. She reminds me to “be myself, feel what I feel, and
most importantly has taught me how to be heard and be seen.” It has been with her sharp
wisdom and the kind of trust I have hungered for my whole life, that my path has been able
to take the kind of shape and form that it has. The unique way she mirrors “this woman” is
a gift that I know comes from a most Higher Source. Thank you Sweet Diane.
“Song of a Lioness” This amazingly fun song came from a place of being utterly torn in
two. A wonderful day of art and fun in the Malibu sun with friends, Darren and Mo…turned
sour by a discovery that some of my art/words had been plagiarized creating a feeling of
being raped. Then with the healing process of writing of these lyrics I found the answer…”
There are no mistakes.” And the life changing realization of what is really happening for
me… “A year of renewal, the butterfly soars on the song of a Lioness Beginning to Roar.”
The best part was the silly country ditty (music) that appeared out of no where and that
brought a most amazing humor to the “Hollow Hearted Harlots and the Scrounged Copy
Cats”
“Secret Selves.” The lyrics of this tune wrote themselves while I was working on a Julia
Cameron assignment in her book about renewing your creative self at work. Secret selves
are a committee of voices that we ought to behoove. Since they inform our very next move.
I love the selves that were revealed to me.
You can read the complete lyrics of almost all my songs now on the two lyric pages on
the Anjlart website by just clicking on the song title under the list of Originals. I hope you
enjoy and I love to hear your thoughts. Truly I do.
So it is in holding all this in the light that I again thank you all for walking with me, sweet
friends to this place in my heart. I wish you a month of relaxation, celebration, and
always…love.
Namaste,
Angeline/Anjlart
www.anjlart.com
"...retrieve your spirit from your past. Leave behind memories and places you should
have left behind long ago, even if the "long ago" occurred as recently as today." Caroline
Myss
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